So how was June for all you beautiful people? Did you make the most of it? I hope so 🙂
For me, it was an about-face month. Let me tell you why.
Lethargy, lethargy go away! Paardje wants to play!
I was immensely homesick, as can be expected from someone who just moved to another country. I seemed okay on the surface, but I was emotional-eating, wasn’t sleeping very well and just felt unhinged. Tears would come rushing out of nowhere especially at bedtime, I was irritable and could see no beauty in my surroundings.
Then by the 4th week of May, an angry voice in my head said “quit whining and smell the flowers!”. I ran out of patience for myself and sulking was no longer an option.
Exercise. Podcasts. Crochet. Repeat.
So I took on a fitness challenge for June, and I told you all about that here, here, and here. I am so happy I did that because it’s been really therapeutic. I love waking up early, enjoying nature sounds and seeing the sun come up. My spirits lifted a bit higher each day and it gave me something good to focus on.
I also threw myself into crochet. I remember feeling really anxious to take on a project that I actually binged on expensive 100% cotton yarn – to the tune of 100 US dollars! – without having a particular crochet project in mind! I’m still suffering from this yarn binge but, lesson learned 🙂
Meantime, while my hands were busy I bombarded my brain with positivity in the form of podcasts. Hal Elrod, Tony Wrighton and a host of others became my constant companions. This prevented me from brooding and overall just fed my brain with practical ideas for living with more motivation and a better attitude.
Much calmer now, knowing that happiness is something you [have to] engineer for yourself, I am finally able to appreciate the charm of my surroundings.
We go on mini adventures on most weekends – even a simple roadtrip is something to look forward to. Recently we just found out where to buy tasty whole wheat bread that actually has a chance of being actual whole wheat bread! And it’s a fun discovery 🙂 I am able to laugh at stuff that used to irritate me, and I see smiling faces everywhere. As a matter of fact, I’m starting to enjoy being a foreigner. I can be crazy and say “haloooo!” loudly at anyone while waving like silly and it gives me a kick 😀 Nods and a curt “mornin'” just don’t do it for me anymore.
The best part is I am beginning to genuinely feel grateful at this opportunity to be abroad. When I get to be old, I can add “having lived in Indonesia” to my resume. Now doesn’t that sound pretty awesome? 😉