A Poignant Loss, Something to be Happy About & Christmas Greetings

Howdy beautiful people! 😘 Did anyone out there miss me? 😂

Our master bedroom is a huge mess right now. I am surrounded by scattered mountains of stuff that need to be packed into already burgeoning suitcases when ..

my eyes caught on my laptop  👀

And I just had to power it on because ~

A BIG HOLIDAY HUG TO ALL OF YOU!

I felt I needed to greet you a Merry Christmas & I of course sincerely wish you all the joy and warmth and happiness and blessings that the special season brings. Whoever you are, wherever you are, may the force be with you and yours always! 💝 💝 💝

A few updates …

 

A HEARTBREAKING LOSS IN THE FAMILY

Some of you might remember that my last post was about a surprise pregnancy. Well, sad to say it but, “B2” did not make it. The second time we went to the doctor for a routine check-up (B2 was a day short of 13 weeks), we found out B2 had no heartbeat. It was a very, very painful moment for the 3 of us.

I had a missed miscarriage, the kind that has no symptoms. Your body just goes on feeling pregnant but the baby is already gone. I don’t know how that works but in hindsight I’m grateful I didn’t do the bleeding and painful cramping that signals most miscarriages because I’d have traumatized my daughter for sure.

We are all okay now. I’ve managed to make B1 understand that these things happen, that miscarriages are nature’s selection process (I said this in a much nicer way of course) and that she should consider herself (and her friends) miracles for being born, and being born beautiful.

A VILLAGE SUPPORTS ME

I am just grateful for my friends who shared the pain of our loss. On any given day I’d receive an unexpected gift dropped off via my daughter’s school (our children go to the same school). They all respected my need to grieve and hence gave me the space that I needed, but through text messages they let me know that they were there.

I am also very grateful for my daughter’s classmates/playmates who were apparently excited for the baby too. They were there for my daughter and, for me as well because, when I finally showed myself in public, they too expressed their concern. It was very sweet in a funny way 😇 I’d see their little faces light up in relief when they saw that I was no longer sad and was open to talking about it. They’d inch closer and ask me to explain how and why it happened. (Don’t worry, I chose my words very carefully + their parents already knew 😇).

Thank God for the blessing of friends – big and small, in person and online (that means YOU) 🤗 💖 🤗

BUT – SOMETHING TO SING AND DANCE ABOUT

Some of you might also remember that I was praying about something.

Well ….

That prayer has been answered!!!💃🏻 💃🏻 💃🏻

We’re moving to Melbourne!

Yaaaaayy! 🤸🏻‍ 🤸🏻‍ 🤸🏻‍

Wish us luck and, I’ll see you all on the other side, mates! 😉 (Sorry, couldn’t help it 😁).

Be good while I temporarily sign off, okay?

MMMMWAH! 💋

~ Paardje