I Am Fearfully and Wonderfully Made

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I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.

~ Psalm 139:14 (KJV)

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Honoring What I Love [With An Adjustment]

sunday slow down 2 I have a Kindle fire tablet that I’ve had since early 2012.Β  There are already a gazillion books on there but, honestly, I use it for games 80% of the time 😏

Recently when I asked my daughter whether she wanted ebook versions of the series she’s reading now she immediately responded with “No, I want to be able to smell them” πŸ˜„

The succinctness of her response made me take an honest look at what I have been denying myself ever since I came to Batam- the pleasure of my 1st love: real, physical books ❀️ It might seem silly but the feel of a real book in my hands just adds another level of pleasure to the reading experience.  I also do like burying my nose between the pages for a good whiff! 😘

But getting my hands on English books is costly as I’ll have to purchase them overseas. The bookstores in Batam only sell books/magazines in Indonesian.

A Concession

I examined my reading habits further and found out that I like to high-light when reading non-fiction.Β  And that it not only takes me longer to finish non-fiction because I take pauses to reflect on new ideas, but that I also enjoy re-reading them. Different ideas might find relevance at different times in my life.

Fiction on the other hand, is temporary entertainment, similar to movies.Β  I don’t underline passages in them, nor do I re-read them.

The path forward [to happiness] thus became clear to me: physical books for non-fiction, ebook versions for fiction 😁😁😁

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Bonus

The bonus to this is that now I can share/discuss with you what I learned from my non-fic reads πŸ™ƒ I’m alwaysΒ on the lookout for practical ideas and now I get to blog about them too!

Methinks it’s gonna be fun πŸ€Έβ€πŸ€Έβ€

A Poignant Loss, Something to be Happy About & Christmas Greetings

Howdy beautiful people! 😘 Did anyone out there miss me? πŸ˜‚

Our master bedroom is a huge mess right now. I am surrounded by scattered mountains of stuff that need to be packed into already burgeoning suitcases when ..

my eyes caught on my laptopΒ  πŸ‘€

And I just had to power it on because ~

A BIG HOLIDAY HUG TO ALL OF YOU!

I felt I needed to greet you a Merry Christmas & I of course sincerely wish you all the joy and warmth and happiness and blessings that the special season brings. Whoever you are, wherever you are, may the force be with you and yours always! πŸ’ πŸ’ πŸ’

A few updates …

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I Thought I Couldn’t Have Another Baby Anymore?!! πŸ™ƒ

Hello beautiful people! πŸ™‚ ❀

It’s been a while.

I’m pregnant you know. Yes, 9 weeks already (approximately).

Dan-dan-daaaaaaaan!!! πŸ€— πŸ€—

I had NO idea. At all!

First off, my fallopian tubes are blocked. When I had my daughter (B1 πŸ’—) my doctor already told me there was a dermoid cyst blocking my right. A few years ago I had myself checked [because we wanted another child and nothing was happening] and I was told then that both my tubes were blocked.

At the time I was already in my late 30’s, so I was really sad as you can imagine. I was advised to undergo an operation or an IVF if we really wanted another child but, since my husband was then already working abroad and I believed my age was against me, I let the idea go.

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The Sneaky Little Thing That’s Preventing Me From Finding A Job

I have this friend that is often the hapless beneficiary of my rants and confessions about the isolation of my life as an introvert expat SAHM (in a quiet, small city in a non-English speaking foreign country – sorry, I just somehow feel less maladjusted if I lay out the parameters like that πŸ™„).

For months now she has been passionately encouraging me to find work online. If not for anything but the mental exercise and the opportunity for communicating with more human beings.

I have been tempted many times – my resume is already polished, an online profile has been created, and feeble, half-hearted attempts at answering job postings have been initiated. But I always halt the process before it “gets too serious”.

And I don’t know what to think about the reason why. Sometimes I ask myself if the admission of which now certifies me as a majestic “bum” but the truth is – I have fallen in love with BEING IN THE NOW.

Being in the now – what does this mean?

Well to me it means asking myself at almost every juncture during the day “what do I feel like doing now?”.Β  Sometimes this means washing the dishes, or doing dance fitness videos, at other times learning something new or even just deciding to have tea while listening to the chatter of birds. It’s never the same and there’s no rhyme or reason to it.

But more often than not, it sends me off to bed at night with a feeling of serenity.

Turns out it’s really something that I have come to appreciate about being a SAHM (with no small children to take care of). And I’ve come to see it as perhaps a luxury only afforded to SAHMs (with no small people to take care of) – the freedom to spend the day however you want. The luxury of listening to the voice inside you and letting it be your guide πŸ€—

And I figured, if I had a job I would no longer have this luxury. And apparently it’s something I deem more precious at the moment than mental challenge and increased social contact.

And so I say to all SAHMs like me:

just-be

Enjoy it while it lasts! ❀

Share Your World 2016 #37

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Hey guys! How are ya? ❀ πŸ˜€ Things are settling pretty well in the new house and you and I should chat about this sometime soon, yes?Β  I’ve found my mouse – yay! XD But we’re switching internet providers since the current one’s not very reliable so, this week will just be another lone blog post by way of Cee’s Share Your World weekly challenge.

With your answers, please remember we are in the SYW world which may not always match our reality.

Have you ever owned a rock, pet rock, or gem that is not jewelry?

Hmmm …. I don’t think so. I had a rock that was engraved with the word “strength” before but I was using it as a key chain.

By the way, the notion of having a rock as a pet strikes me as a bit odd. I know some people collect rocks but I can’t see how something inanimate could be considered a ‘pet’. I need to study up on this πŸ™‚

What is your greatest strength or weakness?

Oh dear, I’m drawing a blank on this one … hmmmmkay: I’m a type A+ perfectionist so I do not know my strengths (may have to ask the husband later 😏) because I tend to focus on my weakness instead. (And the perfectionist me says I have many!) o_O o_O

Also it’s been a while since I applied for a job so I no longer have a canned answer for this one XD XD

Seriously though, here’s one I want to change – I really want to stop reacting to an emergency (or anything unexpected for that matter) with panic. I hate it! 😧 Granted, I don’t run around screaming and waving my hands in the air but my mouth might betray me if I’m not careful πŸ˜₯

The thing is, panicking is not helpful. If any, it curtails rational and creative thinking and makes the problem look worse than it actually is. So I would like to be able to stay calm and NOT think that the world is ending πŸ™πŸ» πŸ™πŸ»

Any tips?

What makes you feel grounded?Β 

I’ve been feeling a lot more grounded ever since my family has been together. I’ve settled comfortably into the role of SAHM (I honestly love it!) and, at this point, am able to receive and enjoy the support of my husband without feeling insecure about my worth as a human being. (You know, I used to be an independent, self-supporting, head-strong, career ladder climbing “Super Woman” in my previous life πŸ˜›).

My Bible study and devotionals, a relatively recent addition to my definition of a perfect day, also helps me greatly in this area.

Would you rather never be able to eat warm food or never be able to eat cold food?

Easy! I’d give up cold food in an instant. My stomach just cannot get satisfaction from a cold meal 🍜 🍲 🍳

Bonus question: Β What are you grateful for from last week ~

Our new study room with it’s beautiful balcony πŸ’ƒπŸ’ƒπŸ’ƒ(See picture above)

~ and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up?Β 

Being able to make my own chicken nuggets. (It’s a feat you know, from someone who never even liked venturing into the kitchen 😏 I’ve certainly come a LOOONG way, dahling!)

Now what are YOUR answers?! I’d love to read them in the comment section below πŸ‘‡πŸ½

Have a wonderful, blessed weekend everyone! ツ

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Share Your World 2016 #36

the-seven-dwarfs-snow-white-and-the-seven-dwarfs-1981625-500-375Hellooooo! πŸ˜€ What? You didn’t think I’d let the topsy-turvy condition of my new abode keep me from blogging, did you? πŸ˜€ Truth be told, it’s a bit awkward writing this post coz I can’t find my mouse, along with a lot of other things. Every day I hear “mommy, where’s my ….?” several times – I feel so relevant and indispensable! XD

But today I felt like saying “hi!” (don’t I just ❀ you so!) by way of an SYW post so, here we go:

With your answers, please remember we are in the SYW world which may not always match our reality.

If you were given a boat or yacht today, what would you name it? Β (You can always sell the yacht later)

Since yesterday I’ve been picking my brains about this and I am nowhere near settling on a name. What a difficult question this is! XD

Come to think of it, since settling on a name is so difficult, I probably won’t sell it XD

Which of Snow White’s 7 dwarfs describes you best? Β (Doc, Happy, Bashful, Sleepy, Sneezy, Grumpy, Dopey) Plus what would the 8th dwarf’s name be?

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Definitely Dopey. I like to be the crazy-silly one in the group although at times I have a little Grumpy and Doc in me too ❀

The 8th dwarf’s name would definitely be Sassy.

Oooh, maybe I’d name the yacht Sassy or Dopey. Sassy Dopey? (I don’t think the husband would approve) XD XD

Name a song or two which are included on the soundtrack to your life?

I love this question! I have music on almost all the time πŸ˜€ But this is quite difficult to decide on though … hmmm. I don’t think you can ever go wrong with music though so, just off the top of my head these two here always make me stop whatever I’m doing and dance:

Incidentally, these 2 songs are mashed-up in my running playlist and I find myself going back to it over and over again so … ❀ ❀

Complete this sentence: Β I like watching…

The night sky. I NEVER tire of it. EVER.

Bonus question: Β What are you grateful for from last week ~

Easy! πŸ˜€ We moved house!

and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up?

Easy as well! Getting organized and being able to find things intuitively πŸ˜‰

Now what are YOUR answers? Let me know in the comment section below ❀

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