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A Poignant Loss, Something to be Happy About & Christmas Greetings

Howdy beautiful people! 😘 Did anyone out there miss me? πŸ˜‚

Our master bedroom is a huge mess right now. I am surrounded by scattered mountains of stuff that need to be packed into already burgeoning suitcases when ..

my eyes caught on my laptopΒ  πŸ‘€

And I just had to power it on because ~


I felt I needed to greet you a Merry Christmas & I of course sincerely wish you all the joy and warmth and happiness and blessings that the special season brings. Whoever you are, wherever you are, may the force be with you and yours always! πŸ’ πŸ’ πŸ’

A few updates …



Some of you might remember that my last post was about a surprise pregnancy. Well, sad to say it but, “B2” did not make it. The second time we went to the doctor for a routine check-up (B2 was a day short of 13 weeks), we found out B2 had no heartbeat. It was a very, very painful moment for the 3 of us.

I had a missed miscarriage, the kind that has no symptoms. Your body just goes on feeling pregnant but the baby is already gone. I don’t know how that works but in hindsight I’m grateful I didn’t do the bleeding and painful cramping that signals most miscarriages because I’d have traumatized my daughter for sure.

We are all okay now. I’ve managed to make B1 understand that these things happen, that miscarriages are nature’s selection process (I said this in a much nicer way of course) and that she should consider herself (and her friends) miracles for being born, and being born beautiful.


I am just grateful for my friends who shared the pain of our loss. On any given day I’d receive an unexpected gift dropped off via my daughter’s school (our children go to the same school). They all respected my need to grieve and hence gave me the space that I needed, but through text messages they let me know that they were there.

I am also very grateful for my daughter’s classmates/playmates who were apparently excited for the baby too. They were there for my daughter and, for me as well because, when I finally showed myself in public, they too expressed their concern. It was very sweet in a funny way πŸ˜‡ I’d see their little faces light up in relief when they saw that I was no longer sad and was open to talking about it. They’d inch closer and ask me to explain how and why it happened. (Don’t worry, I chose my words very carefully + their parents already knew πŸ˜‡).

Thank God for the blessing of friends – big and small, in person and online (that means YOU) πŸ€— πŸ’– πŸ€—


Some of you might also remember that I was praying about something.

Well ….

That prayer has been answered!!!πŸ’ƒπŸ» πŸ’ƒπŸ» πŸ’ƒπŸ»

We’re moving to Melbourne!

Yaaaaayy! πŸ€ΈπŸ»β€ πŸ€ΈπŸ»β€ πŸ€ΈπŸ»β€

Wish us luck and, I’ll see you all on the other side, mates! πŸ˜‰ (Sorry, couldn’t help it 😁).

Be good while I temporarily sign off, okay?


~ Paardje

32 thoughts on “A Poignant Loss, Something to be Happy About & Christmas Greetings”

  1. Sad news and happy news. Such is life, eh! So sorry about B2 but happy for you that you are moving to Australia. I hope the move goes well. And a merry Christmas to you from snowy Canada. πŸ™‚

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  2. I truly am sorry for your loss. We experienced a tubal pregnancy last December. In some ways I’m still grieving but it does get easier and makes you hug your loved ones (especially your children) a little tighter and longer. Life is such a gift. What a blessing to have your support system during that trial. I will keep you in my prayers. Congratulations on your upcoming move!

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  3. I am sorry to hear of the loss of your little one. It made me sad. I have miscarried too. I was not that far along. I went the bleeding and cramping route. I got pregnant again about a year later and now have a wonderful son.
    I hope you have a safe move to Australia and enjoy your Christmas!

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  4. Hugs, Paardje. I’m very sorry to hear about B2. Just to let you know, I went through the same thing many years ago, so I know how it feels. I am glad about your move to Australia, though… you and your family will surely be happy there. All the best to you and yours this Christmas, and a Happy New Year, too!

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  5. Dear Paardje, I’m very sorry to hear about B2 😦 It’s nice to read that you have support from your village, friends and everyone else around you ❀ I'm sending you lots of strength for you to keep coping and growing. Feel hugged! I'm sure the wonderful news help you heaps as well – Melbourne sounds exciting – warm πŸ˜€ !!! Well, it was warm where you were as well but yeah πŸ˜‰ I wish you a good and successful relocation with as little stress as possible!!! Take good care ❀

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