Yesterday I stumbled on a great think: I have to learn to do things just for the sake of doing them.
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I don’t do things just for their sake. I am such an auditor where expending time, effort & resources are concerned.
“Why go out with the ladies when there is nothing new to see?”
“Why crochet accessories for this house when we’re not staying here for long?”
“Why learn Indonesian when we’ll be moving to another country soon?”
“Why go out for coffee when I can brew my own and it’s too hot besides and etc, etc, etc”.
“Why buy those heels that make me feel like a million if I’m only going to wear it once?”
“Why do this when …?”
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This is perhaps something I learned during all those years working for large multinational companies – begin with the profitable end in mind. And it sure seems like I’ve gotten so good at this formula that I don’t know anymore how to just do something for the sake of it.
There doesn’t have to be a strong, logical argument in favor of whatever that thing is in order for me to do it. I could just do it for its sake and be in the moment and allow myself to just relax and not be too analytical.
Granted, this “analytical” kind of thinking has its benefits. A good example is the decision I made to exercise at home, which has been far more effective than all those times I exercised at the gym combined.
But beyond this I really can’t see much advantage to adapting this kind of thinking as a default frame of mind. To the contrary, it robs me of the joy of the moment.
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I think I should just do. Maybe reach out to the girls and go along on their “pointless” 😇 😇 “jalan-jalan” and enjoy it? Of course, I won’t be doing it every day as they do (too much for this cheerful introvert!) but maybe I could do something with them every other week. Or I could go with them and get that facial treatment they were raving about, never mind that I have my own facial spa equipment at home. (Yep, this spa equipment courtesy of my analytical thinking process again).
And I’m going to learn as much Indonesian as I can, even though I’ll probably forget most of it by this time next year.
And I’m gonna crochet whatever I feel like because it makes me happy and I can always give them away when the time comes.
I’m going to learn to enjoy doing just for the sake of it.
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